"I'm sorry. I wish I had a better answer for you

"The truth isn't any more than I could ask for from you," she said, although she felt rather like somone had punched her in her chest. Each time she thought about Cam and the fact that he loved her, it was like a slap in the face but she could hide it now, not let it show.

he let his hands drop away from her, " you deserve better Cera."

"But what you think I deserve and what I want are two very different things," she said, bringing the contact between them as she layed a hand on his cheek.

OCC: I have to sleep, am shatteredm I might get one more post on my phone but wont be on for much longer sorry ttyl x

his heart was thumping and he knew she could feel it, " Cera...its like wanting...wanting to eat only chocolate. it may...may tast good but in the long run...its bad for you."

“What are you trying to say, that your 'bad for me',“ she asked.

he gently put his hand over hers on his chest, " I don't think I'm whats best for you."

"Why? What would be better for me?" she asked.

he swallowed hard against the answer, " someone who loved you."

Yeah but who would that be now? She was an eighteen year old with a kid on the way, guys didn't like girls with baggage... and kids were baggage. "Like?"

"I....I don't know." he said

"Blane..." she said, "Where do I go from here, you say I should be with someone who loves me but even if that's not you you're still going to be one of the people who cares most about me."

he sat back down on the bed, " I do care about you Cera but I don't love you and I don't know if I ever can."

"It's better than nothing... what do you think I should do?"

"My opinion on that shouldn't matter Cera. I mean I'm the one who got you into this."